tired

有时，
我会觉得累。
累在想太多，
累在配合太多，


有时，
不是不说
也不是不想说
只是，
想到的后果，
会让自己矛盾


不想被骂，
只想被理解多一点。


有时，
太过凶，
让我难过，
然后不想说了~~


每个人，
都会累。
看情况，
累在哪。
忍耐度，
有极限。
到达了，
会爆炸！


可我还是忍耐着，
习惯着这一切。
面对着我该面对的一切。
即使想逃避，
可我还是必须面对，不是吗？


【哭过就好了，伤都会好的】
真的会好吗？
痛，已经留下痕迹了，
不是说好了，就能好的。


逞强，
总是我的强项。
不想拖累他人，
不想他人陪我伤心难过。
 虽然收着悲哀是不好，
但，习惯就好了~


累了，
休息就好了…

Spryan's Birthday

sunday doing nothing for the whole day.
some argument with him..
but afternoon he willing to come to my house surprisingly again and make me happy.

but unlucky,
that day argument with parent too.
they always break the promise!
i really hate it!!
do they know?

so that i quickly prepare myself and follow him go out.
in car, i cant control myself and cried infront of him coz of my family..
i seriously unhappy about that.

moody moody...
he fetch me go klang to take something.
after that went to his house awhile to prepare Spryan's present.

reach Umami at 10pm..haha!
Everyone started to play games,
funny things is... they have punishment..
hahaha! my boy get punishment from them.. hahaha!!

11.50pm, really need to go back already.
but he wanted to stay awhile..
so i reach home after 12am.. =(
but is a happy day.. haha!!

thanks for being by my side when i'm upset.. 

love you much ❤

true or false

what happen to me ?

feel upset... and quite upset.

i really dunno what can i do..

do you really think properly,

sometimes izit my fault?

i know,

my weaknesses really make you angry.

but, do you care my feelings for sometimes?

do you know how hurt am i ?

but, i just can keep quiet.

because always when i wanted to say out, 

at the end i will be more hurt.

i really dunno what can i do.. and who can i talk to..

recently my heart really very weak,

easy to break into pieces..

last time,

i love to tell my beloved what am i doing, where am i going bla bla bla..

but, now.. you told me that no need always like that..

trying to change myself to avoid being annoying.

is you said dun use last time how i treat my bf like that treat you...!!

sometimes once i wake up and open my eyes, i saw my phone got facebook notification,

i just open it and reply comment then i sleep back.

but.. is this my fault that i didn't tell you i wake up?

i really dunno what can i do..

always my fault , i always did wrong things.

when i told you that my feeling,

you more unhappy and told me that i always din tell you anything.

but...

do you think before why i will like that?????

do you know why sometimes i choose not to tell you?

that day you told me, 

[if dunno how to tell, pls dun let me know]

what answer is this?

when i saw it, i quite hurt.

what you said to me for sometimes is hurt.

sometimes not i dun wan talk to you, is i dunno how to talk with you when you said something hurt.

ya! i know.. when i tell you my feeling you will more angry and will say [then dun talk!]

i trying my best to change to be a good one. and the perfect one.

but seem like... quite hard.. =(

trying to appreciate everything i have.

but did anyone appreciate me?

even friend, will they appreciate me too??

sometimes when you call just to hear i said sorry.

but why!!!

i say sorry, i miss you , i love you also not the one you want????

i really dunno what are you thinking!!!!

i really dunno what mood i have now..

every night cant sleep well..

always dream, izit too stress??

hope to have a nice sleep for everyday.. =(

hope to go somewhere else to relax myself...

as usual, keep many things in my heart 

is really not a good thing.

and if keep on like that will be more worst and might get sick.

but.. i'm too negative..

i wan to be optimism... is quite suffer for me that always think too much..

just hope to be a girl that 看得开，放得下...

human + friendship

人类，

是那么的现实吗？

人类都是互相利用吗？

对你没有好处的就远离他了吗？

对你有用处的就粘的很紧吗？

酱算什么朋友啊？

有些人，

就只是想知道你多一点八卦就和你扮熟…

八卦完毕，

就不理你了。

有些人，

就听了别人的一些话，

就不想和你做朋友，

觉得你很坏之类的。

可是，他们有没有想过，

别人说的，是真是假呢？

还是特地要你讨厌他呢？

挑拨离间好么？

不过，

有些人，

真的对你好。

不求回报的好~

有义气的好吖^^

而我自己呢？

说真的，说好不好，说坏不坏。

哈哈！！

不过不要弄到我生气啦。

只要你对我好，

我对你更好。

只是，不是利用我就是了~哈哈！

我对朋友的好，

实在太多了。

可是，对我不好的，

更多~哈哈哈！！！！

还是一句【习惯就好】

可是怎么我在学校遇到的，

都是没有真新对我好的呢？？

还记得，

前几个星期说好了如果有去学校一趟就通知我，

结果呢？

一通电话都没有 >.<

没有就算了。

到了昨天，

jessy载我去barat一趟，

她要拿docket，

而我也要顺我妈的意思去拿ptptn的total pay.

结果被我见到他们，

其实，

想说【怎么那么倒霉？】

我已经特地不去223那里了，

结果还是遇到同班同学……

不过，

之前都一直希望我有一个，

至少一个很要好的朋友，

不会忘记我的朋友，

总是觉得没有。

可现在，

我遇到了。

我真的遇到了。

一个对我很好的朋友，

虽然年龄不同，

不过，

我们无所不谈。

开心不开心的，

统统都说一餐

可是，

有些人看不过眼，

一而再的破坏我们的感情，

开始的时候，

也搞到我们吵了一顿，

但，就是我们彼此相信，

才会破解这些不必要的误会。

真的庆幸遇到这种朋友。

我重要的朋友，

谢谢你的出现…

2nd valentine present

yesterday ,

actually we have some arguement and u unhappy.

but suddenly told me that you infront of my house.

and you came to my house and give me my 2nd valentine present.

quite surprise and happy.. =)

although just a simple present.

but it's enough..

❤

thanks..

after that waiting for Kok Lim come fetch me to yam cha. haha!
super duper long time din meet already,

and i always ffk when he ask me out. haha!!

paiseh..

that's why ask him out to replace back all the time that i ffk. haha!

Kok Lim, Burger and Munyi..

chat alot...

that Kok Lim still same,

very 冲动~haha !!

happy to meet you all again.. =)

stomach

最近，

肚子不懂怎么搞，

很不舒服。

涨涨的…

又带点痛~

这种不舒服，

很难解释。

加上有时忍着没上厕所，

恐怕会更严重~

有点担心，

里面到底怎么了…

不想继续涨下去

有时担心到睡不着，

那种滋味，

很难受…

希望身体健康就好~

financial problem

这两个月都没有工作，

只是那份part time

而且有时有，有时没有。

所以工钱不多……

现在都在等着他们confirm我~

人工不算多，

可是，我有income都已经很好，

最多，

存多一点……

不然以后不懂怎么生存。

一切一切，

不能靠别人，

只能靠自己。

没有一个人会突然送你东西。

只有自己争取……

现在的钱，

用到7788……

其实本来还可以用很久，

可是中间发生了一些事。

所以钱，

更快bo liao~

有点难过的说…

本来一切都有计划的，

可是……还是一句 bo liao~
什么都要重头算过…
可是很多东西都做不到了~
不过还是会努力赚回来…

没办法，

钱都出去了，

只能靠自己赚回来…

钱不是万能，

不过没有钱真的是不能！！

现在要准备上班的一切，

可是，

又不能告诉家人我的零用钱用完了。

真的很辛苦…

不想被骂了~~

为了钱，

有点emo的说…

很辛苦难过。

已经是这样了，

可是还要被唠叨~

心情很不好的说…

不过，

一切都放在心里。

或许家人说的对，

朋友在我心里是重要，

所以他们懂我的东西多过家人懂。

有什么都想找他说，可是…不容易。

因为感觉他，不了解我。

每次想得到的安慰，结果被唠叨一顿。

唠叨了后还说以后不会再唠叨，

我喜欢怎样就怎样，因为我都不听。

可是…难道我的感受不用理会吗？

真的很难过……
不是不想告诉，而是不懂得怎么说~
对不起…

Valentine's Day

valentine's present,

i already have that idea on 2011 December.

hahah!! 

but no action,

since i'm LAZY!! hahaha!!

even is just a normal present which i always make it to others,

but this..

this got bit different than previous la..~

because this is an album..

till last week saturday,

went out with Rynn,

since we also wanted to prepare.

so, 

Saturday we went to 1u sing k early in the morning,

then start our [hunting] present job. haha!!

1st went to print out photo >.<

lolx..

my 1st time print out 44 pieces of photos.. hahah!!

ki siao ~~~ 

bluetooth to the machine seriously wait for super long time =.=!

after did, wait for the printing.

after print, need to cut ..

before cut i still thought of very less.

but...

after cut!!

is  A LOT!!!

@@

then went to popular to buy material.. haha!!

bought alot again =.=!!

reach home only know i bought too much paper.. >.<

but is ok, can use for the next few times. haha!

monday only start prepare my present.

hmm...

doing half way, Jessy called and ask me free anot.

hehe!

so , i went out with her to K.. haha!!

not bad. =)

back home finish my another half.

but that night just finished 98% only.

tuesday Valentine's day,

continue editing my album.

haha!!

finally done in the afternoon.

Happy with it.

but he told me that dun put hope coz he might not free.

quite disappointed when i called him at 7pm 

and he told me that he still need to stay in office.

i cried and very disappointed.

at 9pm he called me and told me he reach home.

but, is my home.

quite happy.. 

but he lie to me.. always did that.. =.=!

as i expect, 

no present. 

but, he made a video regarding about us.

quite sweet...

and.. it almost same with my album !!!!!

huh!

but i know this is his 1st time to made video to me.

hehe!! appreciate it. and feel touch .

my valentine present for him.. ❤

thanks for being with me my dear ❤

love you always..  

feel bad

dunno what am i going to do..

quite suffer..

cant cry..

pretend everything fine.

but..

when reach my baby's house.

i forgotten what he said,

i started to cry...

non-stop....

he asked what had happen, why am i crying.

i just kept quiet.

cry and cry..

cry till no voice,

he hug me tight even tough he angry..

i told him that these few days i feel bad..

very bad..

after cry,

feel better but still same.

today i know is my fault,

i din tell properly,

so that he misunderstood,

at last scold me.

>.<

cry again..

coz i really dunno what can i do..

go with him, my parent angry..

go home , he said i dun wan accompany his mom eat. 

=.=!!

haiz~~~~~~

cry two days but still feeling bad now..

what can i do?

complicated mood

today what mood i have today??

hmm..

complicated.. >.<

early in the morning he fetch me to times square,

coz edy the person who want my phone waited us at times square.

my phone sell it to him. 

n i feel that i miss that phone now. =(

then we walk to Low Yat to have a look see whether have cheap phone or not.

dun have.. >.<

so we went to Sunway Pyramid 

but then it sold out.. 

OH NO!!

started to become moody.. =(

ask different shop but expensive.. 

so baby checked again see where still have cheap one.

get one shop in ss15.

but went there sold out too..

that guy ask us to take galaxy s plus

but i dun wan!!

so change place again..

my mood going down and down 

till wanna cry.. huhu!

then another one in Submit USJ

when he said got stock, my baby straight away go there.

yes!

bought it..

hmm..

quite ok with it..

but is ok..

as baby said,

[temporarily use it]

then he will change a new one for me..

hope is true ^o^

and lastly,

happy 7month for you and me..

❤❤

although we always quarrel and unhappy.

but we still love each other.. =)

Doraemon World

woohoo!!

actually yesterday cant fall asleep,

maybe because of going to genting.. haha!

baby get the ticket this morning,

10.30am bus.

reach there and had our breakfast at 1u with Rynn too.

sharp 10.30am bus start journey. =)

lot's of cars... @@

reach skyway wanna take caber car,

reach to the top of Genting,

quite cold.. >.<

Rynn din bring Jacket.

pity her.

walk to the entrance of Doraemon world. 

huh!!

sweat =.=!! & speechless

long queue @@

me and Rynn wait inside the mall.

they queue outside. haha!!

queue for 1hour + 

we able to get in.. finally... hahaha!!

before enter the 1st entrance,

a big Doraemon is outside.. haha!

but.... just the 1st entrance.. =.=!

get our free Touch n Go card..

and we reload there too.. 

we all reload RM100.. @@

and i use Rm31.80 for 2 card holder string.. haha!!

then makan.. @@

waiting for the 2nd entrance,

keep shooting for fun.. haha!

after that enter the World of Doraemon.. hehe!!

quite dark.. 

and have many rooms inside.. =)

go through one by one..

shooting shooting and shooting.. =)

very fast, 

we finish.

then RYnn and me wait for our Kao Fu (Beh)

haha!!

after that, we chao~~~

and went to Casino for a walk..

^^
when we walking to Casino,
saw the people waiting to enter the Doraemon world is more than morning we went

dun see the pic and those people just that part.
actually at the side still got a VERY LONG QUEUE there..
quite shocked and thank god that we went early.. ❤

then back to caber car and bus back to KL.

reach 1u just 6pm..

walk awhile in 1u then fetch RYnn back.

1st time so fast go home =.=!!

hahahah!!
but anyway,

quite ok for today =)

haha!!

1st time went to Genting with my beloved 

and best friend..

even the journey end fast,

but happy =)

About Leo

Just saw a Horoscope about Leo,

quite accurate,

so decide to put here. =)

獅子座抑不是平常的孩子

他們像黎明的曙光永遠帶著一股朝氣。

獅子總是喜歡指使別人

有著天使的笑臉惡魔的心。

獅子像最虔誠的教徒，守護和敬仰著最美的夢。

用笑容祭奠悲傷。

他們本有那一雙愛笑的眼睛，望見天空時卻溢滿悲傷。

或者正在祈禱著，天空不要為他們掉眼淚。

獅子們總是心軟即使是面對著那個一次又一次傷害自己的人。

獅子很固執但是面對著一個很在乎的人，固執的性格卻消失了。

獅子很傻很天真，成天以為開懷大笑就可以忘記內心深處的疼痛。

獅子總是這樣總會去安慰傷痕累累的同伴，而自己的傷口卻只能由自己來治愈他們真的很笨。

獅子吃軟不吃硬，經常口是心非，

很樂觀又很悲觀，安全感不多，有點感性，

有些話即使害怕錯過也不說，

常常被人騙，小敏感，小潔癖，小心軟，害怕受傷，

總說自己不孤單，其實很寂寞對陌生人冷冷的，熟悉後就嘻嘻哈哈，

總表現的很堅強其實很軟弱，總被人誤解卻不願解釋。

獅子給人感覺一向大大咧咧不拘小節。其實外表看似粗獷的獅子也有他小小細膩的一面。

獅子的心思慎密有強烈的保護欲懂得照顧每個人的感受。

獅子是不懼任何言辭的有獅子出沒的地方旁人不會感到孤單氣氛永遠不會冷場。

除非獅子情緒不佳刻意想使場面冷淡。

獅子重感情容易滿足更容易受傷，總有一種被忽視的感覺付出的遠超過得到的。

很固執，不懂得放棄。一點點事就胡思亂想。

在別人面前笑得很開心，一個人的時候卻很落寞。

陌生人前很安靜，朋友面前胡鬧。不喜歡一個人逛街。

心情不好時，喜歡聽憂傷的歌，經常不經意的發呆。

獅子看起來很堅強不容易讓人看見心傷。

在感情中就算分手也會帶著無所謂的面具默默承受一切。

也正是因為這樣，要強的獅子會讓大家誤以為對情傷無所謂，可以很快好起來。

事實上獅子對愛情非常有責任感，一旦愛定某人會非常認真的付出，獅子一旦決定了方向就不容易改變。

all quite true.. ❤ 

happy?? excited??

yesterday

 i went to sing k again!

this time is go neway.

have a very long time i din go there already

once i went back,

feel that many things had change.

of course, the price..

*always change*

and then the front desk staff..

this time change to be a cute one.

hahaha!!

why cute?

because her 1st word welcome to Neway talk till last word Thank you also keep smiling.

is a very good staff.

make us keep laughing and smiling. =)

and she still ask us whether want upstairs or not.

once we get up,

another staff which is indian?? 

* i think so*

he speak chinese.. haha!

and we keep laughing too..

lolx~

my dear friend, 

thanks for accompany me..

=)

*——*——*——*——*——*——*——*——*——*——*——*

today ,

stay at home doing nothing.

and baby bought Doraemon Ticket.

and of course,

Rynn follow me.. =)

but pray hard about the bus ticket. 

hope can get the earliest bus to genting..

pray hard for it.. 

coz i have been a long time din go genting for fun ❤

moody

yesterday already thought of wanna print out my result which dun have my last sem

but yesterday i'm using my dad laptop,

lazy to shift to the printer.

till just now,

i use my brother laptop and wanted to print

only realize that result is OUT!!!

when i see the result 

i wanted to cry!!

i have a terrible result.

this is the 1st time i get this kind of result!

i really dunno what can i do

and really dunno why will like that!!!!

seriously moody

dunno how to spread out!

and i know is my own problem!!

my fault!

haiz~~~

what also cant do..

just can say

try my best again~

actually i just want a simple  comfort only..

got that hard??

/(ㄒoㄒ)/