imagination or reality???

幻觉与现实，
有时我真的搞不清楚
几时是幻觉
几时是现实。
冲昏了头啦… >.<

有时回想之前的事，
总觉得是幻觉，
也会觉得是错觉。
更本搞不懂是曾经发生过还是只是之前想过。
唉~
晕@@

有时自己会想是否想太多
导致这样呢？
真的搞不懂~
我的头脑时常都在想有的没的。
真的讨厌讨厌啊！！

幻觉与现实，

多么希望有些已发生的事，

是幻觉。

有时多么希望有些未发生的事，

是现实。

酱我的生活就能好好的过。=）

planning

now everyone back to their busy life 

and no longer CNY holiday mood.

but me???

huh~

i'm still at home doing nothing 

and lazy to find a proper job for myself and my future. @@

hmm..

really dunno what company should i apply.

and have to start to save money la.

since i just change to iDigi..

lolx..

my baby ask me to sell my phone.

and he will temporarily change a galaxy W for me to use 1st.

hmm..

i think i might change coz someone wanted to buy my phone with RM500.

then only wait for the Note.

-------------❤❤---------------

think back about my CNY,

really boring actually except i go out lo.

but really boring la.. >.<

stay at home see them gamble.. 

mahjong mahjong but.. no cards for this year one?

lolx..

don't wanna stay at home la.. 

>.<

it make me think alot.. @@

hate this feeling la..

always think think think

these two days ^o^

yesterday 

whole day at home doing nothing.

online and sleep.. haha!!

but night,

my darling find me.

miss him so much. ❤

❤❤

he bring me to digi to change my plan to iDigi.. =)

then we went to dinner and back to his house.

get ang pow from his mummy..❤

today 

doing nothing at home in the morning,

dad pack us McDonald as lunch..

coz mom and aunt went to bai nian..

suddenly my digi no signal..

mean that my phone can online anytime at anywhere already 

happy happy ^o^

fetch aunt back to Cheras then straight away go Lot 10.

we gonna have our steamboat dinner.. =)

hmm..

halal one..

but okok only lor.. 

While we waiting for the food cooked,

we saw firecracker outside the window.. haha!

nice view!! ❤

eat not much today coz before went to steamboat aunt treat us eat ice cream

=.=!!

but we laugh alot,

chat alot..

hehe=)

enjoy enjoy..

tomorrow any plan?

hmm..

i think need to go to my dad's sisters house..

oh no!!

>.<

4 days of Chinese New Year

年初一，

到了阿姨家拜年。

晚上我男人来我家，

发生一件很难忘的事，

让我的心，

有了阴影。

现在每分每秒都在害怕，

可是却没人知道。

只能，

自己默默的承受一切的痛苦。

年初二，

下午回怡保。

结果akira打来说要去拜年了。

可是我还在kl，

回到外婆家5点了，

再打给他们看他们在哪里。

他们说去着傻妞家，

所以也载埋我去，

有洁儿，板面，维妮，akira和薇薇。

哈哈！！

我们都有说有笑。

好开心的一天，

我和板面一直说着些有的没的的笑话，

全部都在笑~~哈哈！！

一个小时多回家了，

和家人吃团圆饭。

年初三，

一大清早被家人吵醒说要去吃点心，

哈哈！

真的多人到~~~~~~~

然后去了舅母家，

因为脸上的痘痘要被清理了。

哈哈哈！！

所以去了她家做facial~

连去聚会都迟了。

到达OTK都差不多3点了。

最吓到我的是，

我看到vivian也在~哈哈！

兴奋兴奋。

大家一起唱歌。

哇！！

有件很惊讶的事是，

我们12个人，

竟然有12jug的汽水。！！

而且零食也很多啊~~

全部加起来才300多而已~ 

不错嘛·~哈哈！

晚上到了舅父家，

他像往常一样请吃，

有舞狮和烟花。

人家在舞狮的时候，

爸爸无聊时帮我们拍得~ @@

可惜下雨啊~~~哈哈！

所以都是呆在蓬里面。

年初四，

没什么事情做，

在家睡觉~哈哈哈！

也开了【老友狗狗】来看，

很好笑一下。

哈哈！

吃了晚餐就回来kl了~

哈哈！

我的四天就这么过了~

哈哈！！

有无聊，

有很热的天气，

有开心与叉友的回忆。

不过，

也有我想念我男人的心❤

communicate

沟通

要怎么去和一个人好好沟通呢？

我真的不懂。

尤其是陌生人，

尤其是长辈。

不是我不要和他们说话，

而是，

我不懂怎么开口。

我也不懂要说些什么。

可能你们会说

【那你又可以我们沟通？】

朋友不同嘛……

唉~

我不懂怎么说。

就总觉得我不懂得说话，

认识我久了我才会那么三八。

如何能够和别人沟通呢？

我不善于先开口说话。

总是要别人先开口。

真的不懂如何改掉这个性格。

有点讨厌我自己。

@@

Satisfied \(≧▽≦)/

today mom ask me to accompany her to Jusco Kepong.

but i dislike go there.

so i suggest Times Square since i still wanna buy a pair of shoes for myself.

so how lazy am i also have to go.. @@

wow!

KL don't have traffic problem❤

smooth~~~~~~~

reached and start shopping.

bought a jacket, a skirt and pair of shoes. =)

lolx. 

after bought home only realize that ,

this year too much of pink..

reach home clean all my stuff and i simply throw my plastic all aside.

haha!!

then my room become messy!!

see?? 

i purposely.. hahaha!! XD

rest awhile and have reunion dinner with family.

hahaha!!

full~~~~

outside now lots of 

bing bing bang bang..

later at 12am..

sure non-stop.

haha!!
wish all of you 

GONG XI FATT CAI

these two days..

yesterday early in the morning went to Sungei Wang and wait for Jessy and Angela. =)

have a window shopping before they reach. hahaha!!

and before they reached i bought something that we always eat when we are kids. XD

they reached then we started our shop!!!❤

but.... just i bought clothes...

Jessy just bought a pair of shoes before i went home.

haha!!

and we have Sushi Zanmai as our lunch. hoho!!!

i left at 4.30pm from Feirenheit.

rush to Taman Paramount station before 6pm.. =.=!!

wait for my Baby and we go back together.

in the midnight,

awake by annoying mosquito!!

full of my face so itchy!!

i sleep on the floor to avoid from mosquito,

but.. the floor too hard to sleep.

at last climb back to my bed.=.=!!

early in the morning wake by my mom again.

follow her to market awhile.

reach home then eat breakfast and baby came

went to his house awhile then we go Loud Speaker sing.

cant sing well today. haiz~~

evening went to 1u and have our movie. =)

Journey 2 

lolx.. 

funny man~~ i did something very paiseh in the cinema.

and i cant stop laughing on my attitude.hahahah !!

after finish movie baby fetch me to Rynn's house to get my clothes. haha!!

=)

quite a tired day for today actually.

but happy for these two days..

❤❤

for last,

tomorrow i have to tidy and clean my room one more time.ahahah!!

gambateh!

and 

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Down Down Down

feel very down.

because of  i call whole day phone but still no one pick up.

i dunno what had happen.

just when someone din pick up my call and reply my msg,

i will feel down,

i will feel worry,

i will feel sad,

i will feel disappointed.

but still wont give up to keep calling.

maybe later will be my last call for today.

or maybe tomorrow i will go myself and shop myself.

seriously,

dunno what i can do now.

feel down down down...................
dunno why,  will make me think nonsense.. =.=!!
nothing happen but will make me think nonsense..
gila betul!!!

 but lucky,
when i told myself i wanna give you the last call,
then you answer my call..
finally you answer my call..
and we going to meet tomorrow. =)

enjoy my shopping tomorrow❤

snowflake ❤

really love him so much.

even he said dunno how to give surprise.

but i always get surprise from him.❤

sometimes surprise will make me disappointed

but still will make me feel sweet ❤

love to hear that he called me and ask me open my house door.

mean that he already reach my house.

wanted to see him. hehe!!

and just now, 

he said he tired and not coming to find me today.

after rest he continue his work at home.

and i told him i miss him alot and wanted to see him,

he never reply me,

i keep playing my tetris battle and din notice anything.

but suddenly he called and told me that he infront of my house and want me to come out.

hehe!!

sweet..❤

he bought 3bowl of snowflake to me and my family.

got my favorite Sea Amber Jelly.❤❤

my snowflake❤ 

by Mr Penguin ❤

changes❤

actually we both also know,

we not suitable to each other.

but, we still love each other.❤

i'm selfish and stubborn,

and you also stubborn too..XD

because of this,

we always have some argument and quarrel for sometimes too.

sometimes even is my fault to make u angry, 

but you still will call me back and make me happy❤

really make me feel sorry.. =(

yesterday we talk nicely and agree to have some changes between our weakness.

because you told me that you never change for anyone include your mom.

but you still agree with me. ❤

really hope that we still can keep walking till the end..

my personality,

i really dunno how to solve it.

not because i'm didn't work hard on it.

is because i really dunno why always can't make it. 

~~~~(>_<)~~~~ 

sometimes i really hate myself alot!!

but i still will try my very best to change.❤

as long as you treat me well..❤❤

because i know, your bad record,

you been change it.❤

this is all because You Love Me

and it is because I Love You too❤

let us add more more [oil] through our future. 

ok?

❤❤❤

这两天…

昨天，

和我的男人吵架了

结果他晚上11pm突然出现在我家门口

=）

很开心的说…

也特地拿flyer让我带去怡保玩一天。

陪我陪到12点多，然后就回家了。

和他说了一声【情人节快乐】

今天一早就要回怡保一趟。

累到半死。

因为左边耳朵生了一粒不懂什么东西，

搞到我很痛，无法入眠，

一直被那个【痛】弄醒@@

到了怡保谁也没有约，

因为要去弄头发。

1点多搞定了，

回家吃东西然后就准备回kl了~

因为妈妈回去的目的就是拿东西@@

搞到我累到~~~

真的不了解为什么总是睡不着。

迟早会让我有精神分裂啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

今天不一样的我=）

感情事

怎么说爱情？

爱情是什么？

为什么我失败那么多次总是学不会？

因为我遇到挫折就逃避？

逃避，

我的家常便饭…

遇到什么事我总是逃避。

根本不想理。

有时，

不理有好，也有坏。

体谅，

为什么我就是不会体谅？

总是自私的想自己而已。

为什么总是那么笨？

自责，

其实，每当我做错事，

我都很自责，

然后选择逃避。

而不是不明白。

总是在人群面前，

做错事的我，

嘻哈的带过一切。

被人说也无所谓，当时就是不想理。

可是当一个人呆着的时候，

一切就会跑回出来，让我的头脑想些有的没的！！

可是，却没有人真正的理解我。

不是说了就会被谅解，也不是说了就会被安慰。

我……只是想要一个真正了解我的人。

朋友也好，我爱的人也好。

我不要求很多歌，只要有一个就够了…

有时，选择沉默，不代表我不想说，

而是，

我不懂怎么说出口。

虽然说比做容易。

可是……

也要看看你有没有勇气。

而我，

确实没有那个勇气，

总是很怕死，很胆小~

我不喜欢被骂，

可是还是时常被骂。

我不是不要长大，

而是总是长不大。

有时，

只想静静一个人，

虽然会让我想很多，

可是，

当我想宁静的时候，

还是想一个人躲起来，扛起一切不愉快。
然后，没事的出来面对身边的人，
告诉他们说【我没事=）】

要找一个理解我的人，

有……

那么难吗？？

如果我做错了，

请原谅我吧。

梦……

梦

.

..

...

....

最近不是睡不着，

就是一直发梦。

什么样的梦？

不是很好的梦…

就像今天早上那样，

梦，

我不是记得很清楚

不过，

有三场。

这三场是否关联？

怎么都是一样的人？

怎么都是我爱的你，然后身边一定出现第二个？

这是先兆？

还是我想太多导致那样？

讨厌的梦，

我真的不想发梦！

也让我睡不着@@

我该相信他，

而不是怀疑他。

但我也希望，

当我完全相信的时候，

不要一脚踢我下谷底就好=)

其实，我害怕深夜的到来……

真的很怕。

想太多的头脑在深夜出来走动了，

我无法控制！

真的很难受！！

back to blogger and hi to 2012

im back to blogger.

but..

it's already 2012..

say bye to 2011..

2011.. 
23 dec 
my final exam done. =)

24 dec 
having dinner with my xbao gang..=)
wonderful night.
after that go curve countdown.
my very 1st time.. =)
thanks to my beloved man... ❤

27dec 
have a gathering for our UEL classmate..
i feel so boring actually..
but lucky daniel accompany me.. and elaine too..
thanks..

28dec 
digi roadshows at 1u
done 6days roadshows in 1u and this 6days always stick with my baby.
he help me alot when im explaining with the customer.
we lunch together.

and now.. having my holiday.. and finding for job too..

i dun like to stay at home..

coz.. it make me think alot of nonsense..

make me think about my past..

it's quite suffer and headache..

what should i do to make me feel better ?