gonna miss u in these few days.

baby get virus..

n now is not by my side

i cant control my sadness n keep crying while i pass him to the doctor.

even he with me not very long only but...

i'm miss him badly... =(

i know is my fault coz not taking good care of him.

i really regret it..

i'm sorry baby..

these few days will be.. .. ..

no baby to wake yen up,

no baby sleep beside my bed/under my bed while yen wake up,

no baby to call when i wanted to play with him,

no baby to call while i wake up the 1st things need to bring him out to xuxu,

no baby sleeping everywhere in yen's house,

i cant used to it when baby is not here...

i really hope baby can 100% recover at there.

i really hope baby now is fine when im not around him,

coz when im not at home , he will thought that im sleeping then will be sitting or jumping beside my bed..

daddy hug him up and said im not there then he will sit there quietly to wait me.

im touching after i get mom's call while im at outside.

every time reach home 1st thing i did sure is him..

im very happy saw him shaking his tail n run out. =)

baby, i really miss u so much...

sad

hehe..

pui yin and mei yee same day birthday. =)

wish them happy bday..=)

wednesday yin's bday edy celebrate 2weeks early.

yee's bday i gave her surprise.

uncle jimmy fetch me to restaurant and she shocked to c me. =)

thursday - today ^^

surprise for yee again

uncle jimmy treat us to sing k. lol

jun also go la. but he is late..

get my mom's called n she said baby is searching for me

and he sit at my bed side and thought that im sleeping..

after i heard she telling me this.

i feel touch.. wanna cry..

after reach home, he still dun wan eat.

im worry.. i put him in cage n let him rest.

he vomit again... =(

my heart really very pain n sad...

i dunno how to do..

what i can do..

done!

finally my exam n assignment are done.

holidays start.. 3months o.. yoohoo!

yesterday i total slept for 3hours only..

and hor.. i think i study till gila and did something crazy..

something that i din expect i will did that... huh!!!

but today exam i know i failed..

coz what i study totally forget..

is not in my mind.. ish!

in exam hall feel like wanna cry out edy

coz seeing everyone keep on writing and scare not enough time

but im the one who are the free one waiting time pass.

im trying to add something but really nothing in my mind.. haiz~~

then while waiting the time passs,

im thinking about the assignment,

ish!! one mistake again..

i forgot to save my document in my pendrive..

coz i need to burn in a CD

i just bring my pendrive.. ==!

lunch with joyce and then she fetch me home

after that fetch me back to college again...

submit my assignment.

but feel like something wrong somewhere..

duno which part wrong. lol

but nvm.. now edy submit. =)

haha!!

happy holiday..

gonna miss my classmates... =)

*who wanna date just let me know**

lolx....

but b4 i work ya.. hehe.....

got who???

minkii and mei yee 1st..

then????

hmm....

废话连天~ （只是随口发泄而已） lolx

突然想写华语，

我真的很想放弃……

我真的跟不上！

而且太赶了……

又加上不舒服~

明天要考试了，我还没读书，也还没做完我的assignment.

几天前到现在还是停留在同一个地方~

我真的无法写……我写不出！！

好有压力……

为什么我是那么的笨？

看来看去都看不懂要怎样写~

一直停留在同一个地点，

真的觉得我好笨哦！！！

现在是2.27pm了~

ivan在帮我看有什么错的地方。

他尽然说ok……可是我觉得我有错的地方……

字数不够~

真的好怕哦~

现在只剩下powerpoint和读书了……

怕时间不够，因为我还是很不舒服~

好想放弃哦~~

为什么别的事我那么难放弃？（尤其是那件事）

而为什么关于读书就那么快要放弃呢？

好失败哦~

为什么我不能把事情做好？

为什么总是依靠别人的手来完成我的课业？

为什么我就是不争气做好给人看？（我知道很多人小看我）

就快要放假3个月了，那时我知道那种感觉又会再次回来。

是什么感觉？呵呵~ 就是不想继续都的感觉……

毕竟我不适合读这科嘛……

可是在这个假期里，我想做的事希望能够完成……

呵呵~

好啦~发泄完毕，

应该继续我的东西了……

好饿哦……到现在还没吃……

会被他们骂的哦……呵呵~

茵，加油哦……

不能放弃哦……哈哈

我知道有个人到现在还是默默的支持我的……

虽然他没找我，因为他要我专心在我的assignment然后读书……呵呵~~

想他哦……

hope my mood will back soon

sorry to my friend that i lie you,

because u asked me that am i moody.

i said no to you .

but actually i am..

just i dun wan to admit.

sorry about that...

am i emo? haha

actually i also dunno what happen to me..

just suddenly moody for this few days.

i cant concentrate in everything.

trying to solve my own problem to figure it out what happen.

but failed to do that....

i also trying to figure out while walking from ground floor to fifth floor..

got bit crazy about that coz i cant afford and i cant do it..

if friends that know my weakness sure will scold me.. lol...

hope i will be fine soon.. =)

and hope my assignment will finish as fast as possible..

feel moody today..

haiz.. i also dunno what happen to me today..

just feel moody..

while im taking train to college,

dunno what happen to me...

feel like my tears is coming out.. huh!

reach college saw Calvin,

enter with him lol....

yin them edy in library. =)

sit with them awhile then dunno why i feel like wanna be alone..

n my battery almost empty.

so i sit separate with them.

open youtube and watch dancing..

to reduce my moody mood,

huhu~~

then had lunch with yin, sathys, ruban and calvin.. in ss2.

back to college and find caca to chat..

feel better a bit.. haiz~

what happen to me? why all the feelings come so sudden?

phuiyen!! dun think too much la ok????

haiz~

am i think too much?

hmm, how to say le?

sometimes i feel like i have been left alone at a side..

feeling lonely and will find something to do..

but when u feel lonely what can u do?

actually i dun like this feeling.

but no choice.. i need to use to it.

sometimes i will think that,

if that day i dun wan enter back this college, will be more better rite?

wont unhappy, wont sad, wont hurt, wont .. .. ..

actually in these few months of studying,

am i really happy? am i really can handle it?

i dunno .. i have no answer about it.

sometimes im unhappy but i dunno who to talk to..

sometimes im sad but i also dunno who to talk to..

n sometimes no suitable people really can listen to what im say..

thatz y i really dunno who i can talk to..

suddenly my feeling not very good now.

really not good..

wanna cry, no tears out.

wanna sing, voice not nice.

wanna shout, everyone slept.

wanna run, is too late.

wanna throw things, ntg to throw.

wanna dance but cant follow the steps very well

what can i do?

im my class,

i can be a part of a organizer,

im really very happy..

i can also in charge in photo editing to make card ,

i also very happy..

even is stress when doing the editing..

but im happy to do that.. =)

going to have 3 months holidays...

what am i going to do?

i really dun wan to be alone or left aside..

huhuh~~~~

and at last..
wishing Kavitha will be recover soon..
=)

yin's bday..

hmm, lazy to talk back what i did the last few days.

lolx~

let's talk about yin's bday early celebration.. =)

plan to celebrate yin's bday..

me n ruban and also vani , sakthi plan all these.. =)

when we discussing.,. yin told me that she can feel what are we doing and said 'better dun'

but we dun care.. and din tell her when is that.. =)

happy to help her organise..

but suffer coz she everyday sit beside me

and i cant tell her what am i doing.. huhu...

yesterday only start to do yin's card..

no one help me actually... sad.. =(

cake edy settle on wednesday.. =0

then yesterday only go buy the card's stuff..

hmm, expensive weh.... (total la) lolx...

cut out all the pic really not easy..

but no choice, since early edy got that idea for pui yin.. =)

after class on friday, ruban and daniel helping me to cut out bit of the pics.

thanks to them.. =)

went home continue but b4 that rest 1st..

around 9pm started to cut again...

finish cutting, repair those pic that look cacat. lolx!!

then arrange those pic onto the board..

b4 that suddenly dun hv mood to do that coz something happen ..

cried for almost one hour.

i still remembered, 12am i only start.

lucky calvin accompany me..

hand are pain coz keep using the scissors to cut..

paste it on the board..

wow!! i like so much weh....

but till 3.30am im just finish the 1 board.. still got one more to go..

edy cant tahan coz cried b4.

bring baby to toilet coz his perut not feeling well..

then only i can sleep.. around 4am...

huhu~ then this morning around 7.30am woke up and continue..

double sider tape not enough..!! ish!!

(this is what we called last minute job.. ==!)

reached college then no time to do the pasting.. =(

11am class end. =) then faster continue bit 1st.

yin went to change her baju into dress coz we gave her a dress as present.

then chatting and capturing.. =)

after that i disappear again. coz i HAVENT DONE!!

sad la.. pic not much...

sit in Sathys car and continue and..... im the ONLY GIRL in that car..

reached Strawberry Cafe then order food then i disappear again,

where am i?

im inside the car n do my pasting.

sweating inside the car coz i din start the engine.. lolx!

then, sathys and sakthi came to me and help..

after that wei wei.. then weiwei ask vani come coz after we finish,

we need to write something on the front page.

she wrote [memories of ng pui yin]

nice writing.. =)

then food came but im still busy..

this time busy what? lolx!

busy asking them to sign their big name.. XD

blow cake.. cant cut.. coz is cupcake.. lol!

then continue ask them to sign..

finish then pass to yin....

(actually no one really go through the card and dunno how's inside)

she happy.. n told me [my idea at last become mine] lolx..

we always have the same idea.. same posing.. XD

after makan pic time.. =)

b4 balik pic time.. ruban so funny..

and everytime he also like that.. =)

we are enjoying today..

n sorry yin coz we make u late to ur church.. =(

hope u dun mind.. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIN..

(her b'day is on 26 May, But that time she in Singapore)

izit guys also like that?

one of my dear,

her bf just broke with her..

what is the real reason for him to say break?

few mins ago still having sweet word to her..

but after few mins say break pula..

what kind of bf is that?

her situation almost same with me.

i understand her feeling..

sad for her..

when u love a guy so much then suddenly he break with u..

the reason will be... "we not suit"

if really not suit why still wanna give the girl's hope and let them think that u both can be long lasting??

izit every guys also like that?

will they consider abit girls feeling?

izit guys thought that a relationship is just a game?

say love then love?

say not suit then break?

PLS DUN PLAY GIRLS' FEELING LA...

not every girls also can stay strong one..!!

after u hurt someone then say sorry will it use?

edy no use rite? coz u already hurt that person that LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

guys can forget a girl and accept a new one very fast..

but do guys think about girl?

can they forget guys so fast and accept a new one if they really love the ex?

cant right?!!

but for guys.. they can!!

after they having a new relationship.. they will forget their ex VERY VERY FAST!!

they wont remember u.. they wont talk to you.. they will delete the memory that have you!!

they wanna delete n replace the new one in their heart.. and wont have us!

no matter how sad how hurt are u now , he WONT KNOW and he WONT FEEL it!!

be strong my girl.. i know is hard and need time..

(haha!! this is what my friends told me last time)

just wanna said, if you really love him.. love him secretly.. =)

coz he wont know.. and also HE NO NEED TO KNOW ALL ABOUT IT..

coz even he know, he wont come back...

girl.. no matter how still got me.. ok?

anything must find me o.. i will be there for you.. =)

my minkii.. =)

i'm back from busy.. =)

already quite long din update my blog coz of busy..

(one week only)

busy about my assignment...

after PDP then GLOBALIZATION.

finish both of it then CUSTOMER SERVICE case study.

today is my C group presenting..

lecturer said we are good.. =) happy happy..

let's talk back the previous day.. XD

(actually edy forget what i have did.. so just roughly say out)

on Friday we celebrating Guna's bday..

busy with his card. but is nice.. happy to our Yin & Yen Design.. =)

then on saturday 1st May, daniel told me that he found a puppy cost 550

is cute and small when he send me the mms.

sunday we go c the dog n on the spot bought it. =)

is cute.. n i named it BABY.. =0

play with him make me no time to do assignment.

daniel helped me to do bit bit.. lolx!

monday nite i need to finish up my globa..

so do until 2am, that time eyes edy cant open.

Calvin asked me to rest then 4am will called me wake up.

3.30am wake up by my baby.. ==!!

then continue my work. till morning....

submit my TURNITIN at 6am..

i get 69%... ish!!

Calvin get 40+%..

very moody after get my result.

then morning submit both assignment.

but i just submit one la.. the PDP only.

evening after class asked Ivan & Yin for help.

but still get 37%..

one thing is.. once i reach home, i saw him running out.

even im tired also feel semangat!! =)

thursday went back to college..

why? haha!!

coz we need to take the case study's note.. huhu~~

so thursday look like our college day coz almost everyone is in library busy doing assignment.

when back home coz bring baby go c doctor.

then reach home n rest awhile n wanted to start my presentation.

jenny called n said i change question and wan me to do question 3.

jump up and find answer coz i dun understand question 3 AT ALL.

they stay up in 3 2 square till the shop closed.

and we do our presentation slides till 5am..

damn tired man......

then today woke up at 7.30am and go college at 8am.

of coz im late. haha!! lucky late 15mins only..

haha!!

morning Dr Chan's class. afternoon Ms Puva's class then.. presentation

dad fetch me home and also fetch shirley to my house,

coz she going to Desa Parkcity for teaching. =)

after she go, then i sleep...

sleep till 9.30pm... so syok coz my mom din wake me up.

wake up and play with baby then bath and eat. hehe!!

next monday got English Exam

Tuesday will have a speaker come and it will be our last assignment.

gambateh lo~

now in my life, i got puppy always be with me,

happy to buy him. =)

and he really likes to stick with me..

love him much.. chiu....

chiu = muaxx! lolx~~