Monday, July 29, 2013

my big day in 2013

hmm...this might be a long post. hoho!


this month seem like very unlucky.. haha !
why?
because of as usual.. every year July also sick.
but this year bit worst . due to my voice totally missing.
almost 2 weeks, voice not fully recover.
friends around me asking why am i so long still having this 'sexy' voice.
hmm... mayb due to my job.. everyday talking, don't have a very good rest.
hopefully in August, luck will back to better. haha !

of coz , this month is my birthday.
hmm, din expect too much as usual..
since i know, expect too much later disappointed will more much.
as he said din celebrate with me, so Jessy date me out on my actual day.

27th evening went to Cheras auntie house.
dinner with them at Kam Kitchen. food not bad.. but i dislike and cant eat much..
mayb eat less and less recently.. hoho! XD
and of coz because of my cousin brother came back from HK, but he not back here for holiday.. hmm..
hardly to meet him, and also.. he get me Hello Kitty Circus version..
but not full set. i just the cute two only. haha !

penguin said wanted to count down with me.
so ask my mom back home early.
once i reach, he came to me after 5mins...
asking me get in to the car for no reason..
close my eyes with his hand and drive...
i keep talking.. and asking.. but he say no no no.. lol..
fetch me to the field beside my house, not asking me to open...
while ask me sit down and wait..
my mind keep thinking what will happen...
without open eyes and see.. i use my ears to listen since surrounding is quiet and dark..
i heard some voice, something like 5-6 person.. he telling me that got people playing basketball.. huh...
dunno why.. i like to break people surprise.. so i non stop talking.. haha!
after that i heard people walking near me, sound like 5-6 person too..
once they walked near me and i open my eyes, i shocked..
WOW !! not 5-6 person.. is more than 10 people surrounding me and singing 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' song to me.

fuyoh! under my expectation.... haha ! my very 1st time, coz 2years ago, surprise all figure by myself.. lol..
happy ! very very happy..
he bought cake from Dreamz Bakery.. everyone one small slice also can finish. hoho!
get my present from him..
then......
photo shooting.. =)
friendship forever.. ^^

on 28th my actual birthday =)
morning having breakfast with Akira, Winnie, Jason, Bear, Whitney, and Penguin at Kota Damansara.
evening out with Jessy for our dinner.
she bring me to Jogoya ^^
have been a long long time din went there..
my last time in Jogoya is with JH.
Me and Jessy ate a lot and drink lot of coconut. haha !
of coz... photo shooting too ^^
happy day...
and of coz... friendship forever =)





hope our friendship can last very long...
although always got problem popping out to make us unhappy..
but...
as long as we trust each other,
problem will solve at the end.
friendship comes easy..
goes easy..
when it comes, appreciate it..
when it goes, just leave it..
and it just depends we appreciate each other or not..
we can have many friends...
but close friend who can understand us..
not much ..

and of coz..
sometimes myself also envy those people who surrounding by lot's of friends. haha!
but is ok.. friends can have lot.. haha!
and i know..
 if something it's belong to us, 
they wont leave us easy.
but if something that it's not belong to us,
 how hard to try to pull back at the end also will leave us.
that's why i appreciate my friends always from now..

and for myself,
i realize i change alot.. 
change to..
not like last time love to find people chat here and there. 
listening people sharing their things.. 
tired after come out to work maybe.
hope there have friends who can find me chat for sometimes. haha!
but is ok.. once i free i will go and disturb people, dun let myself get boring in life.
haha! 







hope everything will be very very fine after this =)





Monday, July 22, 2013

something that non of my business

我不懂我怎么了。
今天,
看到了一些不属于我,不关于我自己的东西。
看了,莫名的痛心。
为什么?
我不知道…

或许,
我是一个很信任别人的人吧
单纯的话,我不是那种单纯到这样的人。
我是容易被骗,可是我不是完完全全受到欺骗的人。
有时候只是我不说,不代表我不懂,不代表我被蒙在鼓里。

信任,减少得更多。
失望,比之前多了。

事实如何不重要,重要的是我眼睛看到的东西,不是吗?
可以说我像头牛那样不听解释。
然后再发我脾气也无所谓。
或许,真的习惯了。。。。

可是这次,两年内都没有再发生的事。
我不懂如何解释。
也不懂如何说自己的心情。

要哭?难过?心痛?
哭…… 我没哭,很坚强的忍。
难过…… 有点,不多。
心痛…… 因为又被骗了?

告诉自己别再相信你所说的,
结果最后还是傻傻的再次相信。
相信了然后自己难过。
自己傻…

分开说得真容易。
是我自己一个人还拉着不放。
两个人在一起很辛苦。

不是没有变,变得不明显。
你我都不理解对方。
只是知道我是怎样的人,你是怎样的人。

对,我很傻,凡是都是以别人着想为先,自己总是在最后。
不管伤不伤害自己,不管自己得不得空,不管自己帮不帮到,
还是一样会尽力。
然后最后自己一个人烦恼,一个人难过,一个人流泪。


不是一句 【他有男朋友的】就可以了事。
我不是没有感觉,每次【哦】后,心里很不舒服。
可是既然说了那句,就算了。别让我知道背后的故事就好了。
机会一次又一次的给,我也知道你给我不少机会。
或许,应该想想,以后的路了…
解释?解决?

对不起,我今天对你实在他冷淡了。
心累了…
别说需要我,很爱我,
当吵架时候,这些会变成反义词。
会变成讨厌我!

我知道我很心软。超级软。
脾气也没有底线,发了就算那种。
可是,别把我这些不当一回事。
一旦真的超越了,我自己也不懂会发生什么事。


Thursday, July 18, 2013

fall sick.. damn pain

哇!好久都没有更新了。
哈哈!

不是不想更新,而是有点懒惰的说。 呵呵!

昨晚第一次那么的疯狂去排队买公仔。哈哈!
很兴奋,可是。。。排到那么前还是只是买到一只而已。
有点失望。

声音没了,还是真的长那么大都没有试过。
吓到我哭了~
四点多起身就没声音,
今天去看看医生,她还骂我说为什么那么迟才来看。
我也是昨天才没有声音啊。哈哈!
她还命令我别说话。
果然,讲不出声,只是用“气”来说都要我的命。。
结果我老爸就一直弄我,明知道我说不到就等我回答!!
真的无言。

吃东西喝水也痛~~
通常多久会恢复呢?
真的痛死了@@