ish!!

why everytime also like that?
why what you said also can change so fast??
izit everyone also like that huh?
you also like that, he also like that, she also like that!!
ish!!


On Friday b4 telling her that i have replacement class on Saturday,
I told her Sunday i'm going to Calvin's cafe open ceremony 1st then only tell her the replacement.
she also asked me that where is the place..
but til just now she said i din tell her anything,
and she said she thought is the replacement class!!
ish!! i still very remember that she ask me where is the place n i told her [klang]..
then she kept quiet, so i thought she edy let me go.. !!
who knows just now kena marah!!
i always get scold coz of a small matter!!

recently she always asked me whether i have check my ptptn anot.
i told her i will go n check and she scold again! adui!!!
coz i get the big amount and have extra. i mean the total huh~
but the ptptn just give us RM100/ per sem
But i have counted that if just Rm100 per semester then i have extra as well..
then where is my extra go??
and she said that her friend's daughter ptptn is send to the account and paid the semester fee by ownself.
so when i said i will check myself then scold me pula!
i have told her many times that the ptptn will direct send the fees amount to college.
but she still telling me the same thing!
she said ur ATM card had big amount later ppl know n rompak me,
i told her that my account just got RM100 they rompak for what!!!???
who knows she misunderstood n thought my account have thousand ++ then keep on scold me said i din check properly
and why i get such a big amount (with extra)
me n emma also got called to college and ask the person who in-charge of,
but she also cant answer me..
since morning she edy keep nagging around me about the ptptn stuff!!
till i go back from college still the same..
i really cant stand it edy u know?
u think that i din check izit???
u think im so useless what also din do properly izit??
izit aunties also like to listen to aunties only???
it make me recall back the singapore movie [i'm not stupid]
do you really understand what i want??
i already listen to you coz i respect u.. but why everytime u just can change ur decision same like my lecturer??
do you know sometimes i already cant stand and hope i can leave this house?
do you know what im interesting in??? i wanna learn dance for so long and everytime what u said to me??
untill now what i learn?? i learn shit lo!! =(
still remember last time b4 i learn driving what u said to me and after i took my license and what u said to me??? do you remember?? is TOTALLY DIFFERENT!!
wherever i wanna go of coz i need to ask for your permission, but can you give your answer to me earlier so that i can tell my friends??
do you know because of you, i always delay till at last ur answer sure is NO!
i know now is much more better than previous coz i know ur tactics edy.
sometimes even i not yet ask u, i already have the answer to answer my friend..

dunno why everytime when u start to talk or scold,
i also will reply back you.. no matter what i also will reply back to you..
just when i know im wrong then i will keep quiet..
if my mood also not so good of coz i will reply you..
if my mood still ok, i will just use [this ear masuk that ear keluar] so i wont get mad easily..
i know reply you back mean like not respecting you or im rude!!
but i just can say.. [i really cant stand it even you have the autority to scold me but not everyday with the small matter!!]
i know i'm not good at all to you..
when im a good girl u just will keep quiet and pretend like ntg..
so i just will back to normal..
when i reply back to you, i kena marah..
when i dun reply you n keep quiet, i kena marah as well..
then what u wan me to do?
and always also my fault..
u are too control me.. i have no freedom at all
dont blame me that i lie to you (last time) coz i just have that way..
n what i said to you is useless, you wont listen..


no matter how, i respect you.
n ur voice, if u not at home i miss your voice pula..
coz mayb u everyday also will find something to scold..
if u not at home n go for vacation the house will be so quiet..

haiz~~ dunno like this is what.. adui~~~