Down Down Down

feel very down.

because of  i call whole day phone but still no one pick up.

i dunno what had happen.

just when someone din pick up my call and reply my msg,

i will feel down,

i will feel worry,

i will feel sad,

i will feel disappointed.

but still wont give up to keep calling.

maybe later will be my last call for today.

or maybe tomorrow i will go myself and shop myself.

seriously,

dunno what i can do now.

feel down down down...................
dunno why,  will make me think nonsense.. =.=!!
nothing happen but will make me think nonsense..
gila betul!!!

 but lucky,
when i told myself i wanna give you the last call,
then you answer my call..
finally you answer my call..
and we going to meet tomorrow. =)

enjoy my shopping tomorrow❤

snowflake ❤

really love him so much.

even he said dunno how to give surprise.

but i always get surprise from him.❤

sometimes surprise will make me disappointed

but still will make me feel sweet ❤

love to hear that he called me and ask me open my house door.

mean that he already reach my house.

wanted to see him. hehe!!

and just now, 

he said he tired and not coming to find me today.

after rest he continue his work at home.

and i told him i miss him alot and wanted to see him,

he never reply me,

i keep playing my tetris battle and din notice anything.

but suddenly he called and told me that he infront of my house and want me to come out.

hehe!!

sweet..❤

he bought 3bowl of snowflake to me and my family.

got my favorite Sea Amber Jelly.❤❤

my snowflake❤ 

by Mr Penguin ❤

changes❤

actually we both also know,

we not suitable to each other.

but, we still love each other.❤

i'm selfish and stubborn,

and you also stubborn too..XD

because of this,

we always have some argument and quarrel for sometimes too.

sometimes even is my fault to make u angry, 

but you still will call me back and make me happy❤

really make me feel sorry.. =(

yesterday we talk nicely and agree to have some changes between our weakness.

because you told me that you never change for anyone include your mom.

but you still agree with me. ❤

really hope that we still can keep walking till the end..

my personality,

i really dunno how to solve it.

not because i'm didn't work hard on it.

is because i really dunno why always can't make it. 

~~~~(>_<)~~~~ 

sometimes i really hate myself alot!!

but i still will try my very best to change.❤

as long as you treat me well..❤❤

because i know, your bad record,

you been change it.❤

this is all because You Love Me

and it is because I Love You too❤

let us add more more [oil] through our future. 

ok?

❤❤❤

这两天…

昨天，

和我的男人吵架了

结果他晚上11pm突然出现在我家门口

=）

很开心的说…

也特地拿flyer让我带去怡保玩一天。

陪我陪到12点多，然后就回家了。

和他说了一声【情人节快乐】

今天一早就要回怡保一趟。

累到半死。

因为左边耳朵生了一粒不懂什么东西，

搞到我很痛，无法入眠，

一直被那个【痛】弄醒@@

到了怡保谁也没有约，

因为要去弄头发。

1点多搞定了，

回家吃东西然后就准备回kl了~

因为妈妈回去的目的就是拿东西@@

搞到我累到~~~

真的不了解为什么总是睡不着。

迟早会让我有精神分裂啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

今天不一样的我=）

感情事

怎么说爱情？

爱情是什么？

为什么我失败那么多次总是学不会？

因为我遇到挫折就逃避？

逃避，

我的家常便饭…

遇到什么事我总是逃避。

根本不想理。

有时，

不理有好，也有坏。

体谅，

为什么我就是不会体谅？

总是自私的想自己而已。

为什么总是那么笨？

自责，

其实，每当我做错事，

我都很自责，

然后选择逃避。

而不是不明白。

总是在人群面前，

做错事的我，

嘻哈的带过一切。

被人说也无所谓，当时就是不想理。

可是当一个人呆着的时候，

一切就会跑回出来，让我的头脑想些有的没的！！

可是，却没有人真正的理解我。

不是说了就会被谅解，也不是说了就会被安慰。

我……只是想要一个真正了解我的人。

朋友也好，我爱的人也好。

我不要求很多歌，只要有一个就够了…

有时，选择沉默，不代表我不想说，

而是，

我不懂怎么说出口。

虽然说比做容易。

可是……

也要看看你有没有勇气。

而我，

确实没有那个勇气，

总是很怕死，很胆小~

我不喜欢被骂，

可是还是时常被骂。

我不是不要长大，

而是总是长不大。

有时，

只想静静一个人，

虽然会让我想很多，

可是，

当我想宁静的时候，

还是想一个人躲起来，扛起一切不愉快。
然后，没事的出来面对身边的人，
告诉他们说【我没事=）】

要找一个理解我的人，

有……

那么难吗？？

如果我做错了，

请原谅我吧。

梦……

梦

.

..

...

....

最近不是睡不着，

就是一直发梦。

什么样的梦？

不是很好的梦…

就像今天早上那样，

梦，

我不是记得很清楚

不过，

有三场。

这三场是否关联？

怎么都是一样的人？

怎么都是我爱的你，然后身边一定出现第二个？

这是先兆？

还是我想太多导致那样？

讨厌的梦，

我真的不想发梦！

也让我睡不着@@

我该相信他，

而不是怀疑他。

但我也希望，

当我完全相信的时候，

不要一脚踢我下谷底就好=)

其实，我害怕深夜的到来……

真的很怕。

想太多的头脑在深夜出来走动了，

我无法控制！

真的很难受！！

back to blogger and hi to 2012

im back to blogger.

but..

it's already 2012..

say bye to 2011..

2011.. 
23 dec 
my final exam done. =)

24 dec 
having dinner with my xbao gang..=)
wonderful night.
after that go curve countdown.
my very 1st time.. =)
thanks to my beloved man... ❤

27dec 
have a gathering for our UEL classmate..
i feel so boring actually..
but lucky daniel accompany me.. and elaine too..
thanks..

28dec 
digi roadshows at 1u
done 6days roadshows in 1u and this 6days always stick with my baby.
he help me alot when im explaining with the customer.
we lunch together.

and now.. having my holiday.. and finding for job too..

i dun like to stay at home..

coz.. it make me think alot of nonsense..

make me think about my past..

it's quite suffer and headache..

what should i do to make me feel better ?

working..

on Friday i get a call from Cinema Online
Samantha called me and asked me wanna work anot.
huh~ Rm100 per day again..
but just for two days this time...
and work at 1u GSC cinema there.
accept the job then find 2 more person to her which is my classmate Pui San and Shan Shan..
3 of us 1st time work together. =)
our working time will be 12pm to 9pm..

But on Saturday morning ,
we need to reach 1u at 9am to have briefing.
we reached saw Sam and Kak Mai and the others which i dunno..
while waiting for a girl they give us a short briefing.
we work under Maxis this time..
have to promote their thing which is create a paypal account then can get buy one free one movie ticket.
after that got game for them which is free.. =)

12pm start working..
we still not so familiar with the maxis thing
so not active to promote , but Sam told us that after lunch we already got bit used to it. =)
happy to hear that. ^^
my lunch and dinner also with my beloved him... ❤
tired but enjoy the day..

On sunday we need to reach 1u at 11am for set up
but then Sam and Inn not yet reach..
we just sit aside and wait.. huh~~ sleepy....
after that they reach and we gonna set up the stuff..
and ..... start working.. hahaha!!
this day.. i din sit much coz the chair is too FAR!!!
quite tiring..
especially Pui San.. ahah!! her legs is more tired.. haha!
seeing ppl playing the puzzle game i just keep laughing
Inn said im just like the gambling ppl n Inn said [nasib you kat tangan I hari ini..hahah!!]
i keep laughing with what Inn told me.. hahaha!!
i met Joanne n Vikky =)
and asked Ivan create a paypal account.. ahahah!!!

night almost 9pm only customers come.. =.=.!!
finish work and finish clean up already around 10pm..
and we get our salary on the spot.. happy happy ❤
wanna find him but... dad already coming..
cant see him before go back..
miss him.. =(

hope to get this kind of job again.. =)

Catherine's Wedding Day

thursday night went to Catherine's house for buffet dinner.
chit chat alot with them =)
almost 12am and i need to go home,
but others went for 2nd round as usual..

Friday night went to Kota Damansara for dinner
the card shown that 7pm start.
but i reach there at 8.30pm due to one of my friend's wife need to make up.
we reached and the dinner almost start.. =.=!
lucky.. =)
sit with my bf..
sweet and everyone are wearing so nice... hehe!
Renji and Rooney sing at the stage.. =)
have a nice night with them..
but have a little argument with him.. =(
so i din join them for the 2nd round...  haiz~

night..
we chat till 3am something and i cried till that time..
haiz~~
i really dun hope got this kind of problem come to me AGAIN!!

想太多

我又想太多了吗？

还是这是自然的想法呢？

为什么我总在一个人的时候，

就开始胡思乱想呢？

怎么每次都想些有的没的？

读书又没有那么会想，

偏偏就在别的方面就厉害~

@。@

爱情，

到底是怎样？

是之前留下的阴影所造成的吗？

怎么有时那么难去相信呢？

我已经尝试去相信，

尝试去理解，

尝试去改变自己的缺点……

可是~

我还是无法逃掉我想太多的这个念头。

友情，

怎么维持呢？

是要互相有利用价值才能长久？

为什么没有一个人，

是值得我去信任呢？

为什么大家到最后会出卖你呢？

为什么当我有了知心朋友，

就会有人一直在挑破我们的感情呢？

是什么原因呢？

我自己都搞不懂~

亲情，

家人的想法重要？

为什么我的想法他们不会尝试接受呢？

是我不会想？

在他们眼里我还是小孩？

这些，

是我想太多吗？

还是，

我太固执了呢？